I cant let go because you gave me so much to hold on to.

Maybe i should just let go of the past,
Forget all about what had happened,
And start our friendship all over again.
Yes maybe thats what i should do.
You know it wasnt easy,
To forgive someone who had hurt you so much before.
It really wasnt that easy forgiving you.
Im just wondering,
What if the same thing happened all over again?
No one would want history to repeats itself..
Im not going to let myself fall once again.
I gave you chances to change,
I gave you time to change.
How much time you need i will give to you.
You said you were going to change and told us to believe you for the last time.
And yes we did believe you.
But look what had happened.
You lied to us.
Oh well maybe you didnt meant to lie.
You told me all sorts of reasons behind it.
Yes maybe we dont know because you didnt say it clearly beforehand.
And i mean clearly,
Every single detail every single little thing.
Oh yes and why cant i look another way round instead?
Because i simply cant trust you any longer.
People change,
Friends come and go.
We dont know who are the true bestfriends that will stay with us,
That we can really trust in them,
Isnt it?
Yes maybe i should just let this matter rest.
And blow off this matter eventually.
But you see it wasnt easy.
For me and for any other person.
You think i want to carry on quarelling with you about this tiny small thing?
Okay i tell you here that i dont want to.
Its really damn childish and irritating and annoying.
Maybe i shouldnt care about anything anymore and live my peaceful life.
Oh well i know everyone is not perfect,
Everyone have their own flaws,
I know that.
Thats why im not blaming you for anything over here.
Fine for this last time,
I will trust in you once again my friend.
The last time.
I hope you will prove me wrong.
I hope you will prove to me that you're really a good friend who dont lie,
I hope you will prove to me that you're really a good friend who treat your friends well,
You're still my friend..